The backbone of my new self is the irresolvable contradiction of the last 33 years, where the more I wanted to achieve something, the less I had a sense of achievement. I was a certified footballer for eight years, then started playing really well after I stopped, I was really getting laid when it was no longer my priority to win a woman, and I was appointed manager of a restaurant in London when I was finally disillusioned with the hospitality industry. My new evening explores this theme and my stories and observations are based on this contrast.